How did Semester 1 go?

I used to tell myself this:

A new beginning, A BRAND NEW START!

A new environment, NEW PEOPLE!

Change for the better!

Be a better person!

THIS IS ALL LIES AND FANTASY.

NOT REALITY.

What actually happened was this:

A new beginning, YES, but A BRAND NEW START? NOT REALLY.

It's just the same old studying, the lectures, the lecturers, the coursemates, SAME THING.

A new environment, YES, A very beautiful, in fact, but NEW PEOPLE ? New faces, same old attitudes and characters. I learnt a very important lesson here: NO MATTER WHAT PLACE IS IT, IF THERE IS THE EXISTENCE OF HUMAN LIFE, THERE WILL BOUND TO HAVE DRAMAS AND PROBLEMS. IT'S THE PEOPLE'S THAT'S AT FAULT, AND ULTIMATELY, TO BE VERY HONEST, OUR OWN SELF. 

Change for the better? Yeah, just a little bit, but there's so much more to learn. The thing is, HOW AM I GOING TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER IF I DID NOT EVEN LEARN ANYTHING NEW TO IMPROVE MYSELF WITH? ( I just discovered this problem. )

Be a better person? But FIRSTLY, I NEED TO CHANGE AND IMPROVE !

So here are the highlights for SEMESTER 1, YEAR 1 IN MY DEGREE: 

Fortunately, studies, lectures and lecturers are alright for me. ( /) (But I'm still anxious about the things I don't quite understand...)

Assignments ? I DID THOSE STUFFS UNTIL I GOT SICK. THOSE STUFFS ARE NOT HUMANLY POSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE AND THEY ARE REAL TORTURE.  (X) ( No exams though, I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. )

ALSO, I'm starting to get sick and fed up of buses and trains. Yet, I fear I can't learn directions well enough to actually drive. 

SO THIS ENDS SEMESTER 1 ! 

Bittersweet yet again!

Well, you know what they say, 'You won't know the sweetness without the bitterness' 

I shall blog again, if I can, but hopefully it is because I genuinely have time, and not because I lack social life. 

BYE ! 

2015 ?!

I suddenly realised I can't seriously stop blogging.

It will be awful !

Not having a post in 2015 ??!

That will be very bad indeed.

So I shall start the year with this .

2015 !

I'm 21 years old !

Officially an adult !

WHAT ?!

OH YEAH.

That seems terrifying.

Indeed it is.

Can't believe it though.

But better do believe.

Since there's no escape from it !

Now, I realised and I'm going to be very realistic now by saying that I may not have time to even think of something to blog about when my university studies start again, let alone the time and energy to sit down and actually produce words and sentences to write blog posts.

And I also realised blogs are not that well-received anymore and videos have taken over.

Therefore, I also realised that I will be writing for primarily my own self , as a journal of some sort, and maybe one day, when I'm old, I'll look back and read the things I have written and cringed to what I have written and how I have written my thoughts down.

But I guess it's all as well and there's nothing to lose.

So here we go, blogging yet again !

I hereby sincerely hope for a DRAMA-FREE, NO-NONSENSE, FUN, ENRICHING and BLESSED year ahead !

I have accepted that there will be many obstacles and challenges waiting for me, out there, as the days and months pass by and I'm already feeling the worry, anxiety and fear, which is what I should NOT do.

I tell myself,

ONE STEP AT A TIME.

And I will make it.

I will always make it.

Since I'm here now.

That has proven that I can.

I also want to reflect back to 2014,

of all the things that have happened,

the good,

the bad.

I cherished the good,

I learnt from the bad.

And with all that I have learnt, I hope I'll be better equipped for the challenges ahead !

I have much to learnt still,

And I will learn them all.

Frozen

Yes, yes , YES.

I finally watched Frozen !

The best princess-based Disney movie to date ! It even won an Oscar for Best Animation Film ! And its song, Let It Go, won the Best Original Song !

Great storyline, very unique and original. Beautiful music and songs. Top-notch graphics. Awesome characters. Whats more to ask for ?

I'M OLAF AND I LOVE WARM HUGS ! <3 

Oh how I love him <3 Can I have my very own Olaf ?

The awesome cast ! 

The amazing sisters, Elsa and Anna <3

Cyber craze

Why do we feel the need to 'like' and 'comment' on posts on Facebook ?

Why do we feel the need to take 'selfies' ?

Why do we feel the need to 'retweet' and 'favourite' on Twitter ?

Why do we feel the need to take every pictures of the things we do and eat at the time and post them everywhere ?

WHY ?

No logical or reasonable reason whatsoever.

It's like we, human beings, have turned ourselves into willing servants of the social networking sites, gadgets, technologies and the internet.

Maybe you could argue that taking pictures and capturing moments is for memory and posting up on sites so that the memory will not fade and share them with people so that everyone you know could share your joy and happiness.

Yes. that will be the only acceptable reason, although people overdo it and it becomes a craze and show-off medium and that does not explain the need to gain as many 'likes' as possible.

The thing is, moderation is the key.

Everything has limits.

Stay within the line and everything will turn out well and beautiful and meaningful.

But right now, I don't think there will be a turning-back.

We have gone too far.

What a pity .

Insight: Choosing a Degree Course

Firstly, I love the Mass Comm degree and I found out the reasons why I can't pursue this degree.

And then, I love the Law degree and I found out how I won't be able to make it till the end.

And then, i found something closer to my heart and picked English-related degrees , English Literature/ TESOL Education degree and stay with it because that is all I love all my life.

The message here is : YOU GOT TO FIND SOMETHING THAT YOU WANT TO DO DEEP DOWN IN YOUR HEART.

Because that will ALWAYS lead you to the right place. 

Sometimes, it will be overwhelming that you know you have so many choices out there and you have a lot of interests and you feel like you can try out everything. 

But then again, when you sit down and think about it more, you will start eliminating choices because you found the reasons why the choices couldn't exactly work out for you in the end. 

A person could have many interests and many sides. But a person also has a main core purpose that he or she wants to do the rest of their lives. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is what your degree got to be about. 

A study in degree is a time period in life which is important. You need to have fun while studying it , gain experiences, get to know the world and yourself better and path a future for yourself. 

Although it is perfectly fine that you end up doing something that has nothing related to your degree course when you start working, it will be so much nicer and better that you do end up doing something you studied for, that's the first best thing in options.

Be yourself and think for yourself. Don't let other people tell you who you are and what you need to do with your life. Study what you want and love. Chase dreams, fulfill goals. 

Best of luck to everyone ! 

Insight: Choosing an University

So, what really went through my mind during the process of university-picking ?

Here we are.

It's said that it's good to dream BIG and put your vision as HIGH UP as possible. Therefore, I have been eyeing the UK universities for the longest time.

And since I have been thinking about flying over to the UK to study for so long, it's only right and reasonable for me to apply for the universities there through ucas.com

So I did. I applied for 5 universities.

Thankfully, I GOT THEM ALL.

Now, as any determined, headstrong and logical dream-chaser would GRAB those opportunities to fly over to the UK to study, I DID NOT.

I have my very own reasons, ie: the unsuitability of the actual degree courses, the lack of scholarships, the challenges of living abroad and so on.

But the sheer satisfaction of getting offers from universities that I applied for is enough for me. It proves to me that I CAN DO IT.

So then what did I do?

I went back to my first love, my dream university for years, an university close to home but has the legacy from the UK. For me, it is the perfect combination, just simply perfect and I know in my heart no matter what choices that come my way, I'll still pick it and that's WHAT MAKES IT THE RIGHT ONE.

An insight on choosing the right degree course will be coming up next. Stay tuned !

Why do I choose to work ?

Starting 17th Feb, I'll start my job at YuanYuan Boutique at Tesco in addition to my teaching job in the weekends.

But why would I want to do that ?

1. I don't fancy sitting around the house doing nothing worthwhile and I hate myself for it.

2. I need to socialise more, meet people and open up a bit.

3. I want to observe myself on whether I can take the pain and suffer of working from 9.30 am to 10.30 pm. It will be a challenge I want to prove to myself.

4. Gain working experiences.

5. Avoid nagging by parents about being in front of the laptop all the time. Now that I start working, I don't even get enough time to sleep and eat.

6. See the world, the society, the people and observe and obtain how good or bad things are.

7. To earn some pocket money, first pile of paper money at age 20.


This is gonna be one bittersweet experience, that's for sure.

All I hope is that it is going to be alright and that I am still alive at the end of this and be prepared for university in september.