1. I smell new books before reading them.
2. I don't take good care of my books at all.
3. I feel weird looking into the mirror when there is someone else standing beside me.
4. I watch every video at least TWICE.
5. I have my own systematic arrangements in my messy space and stuffs.
6. I replay songs until I hate listening to them.
7. I love being polite to random people I come across just to see them smile for a moment.
8. I couldn't really stand silence. I think silence is so awkward. But if I can stand silence when I'm with you, then you really are special.
9. I have this weird and unnecessary ideal that how everybody should act and should live their life and how the world should be and why everything is the way it is.
10. I can be very friendly and outgoing for a day and interacting with people make me so happy and a very shy and timid person the next and I don't feel like doing anything that needs me to interact with people. And this is really bad.
11. I'll be genuinely hurt when people tease me because I'm just soft that way and that I don't see why people feel the need to do that.
12. I don't really feel people need to have any expectations towards me and I don't know why they will have them. And I don't know why people look highly towards me when I know I'm just doing the things I do.
13. I just don't understand why people feel the need to hate on me when I don't do anything wrong to annoy and disgust them.
14. I think of love as a very complicated puzzle that I need to solve someday.
15. I get excited and nervous at the same time for almost everything even though they are quite unnecessary.
16. I can go from being happy to being sad to being angry and then depressed just like that with all the problems building up inside me. And then without really solving all the problems but just making peace with it, I'll be really happy again/
17. I take interest in the weirdest things.
18. I always put people first and act in the best interest of others and I'm weak at saying no sometimes.
19. I have an unhealthy obsession with the British culture, people, places and everything.
20. Books, writing, languages and everything related are my passions.
TO BE CONTINUED.
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
Friday, September 13, 2013
Feelings deep inside
Yes, I'm not happy. Actually, I'm sad. Well no, I'm angry.
It's like sitting in a dark corner, inside a tiny little box, underground, far far away from everyone and everything.
I wonder why the world is the way it is?
I wonder why do people are the way they are?
Why the society is the way it is?
Why do people lie and not be honest and upfront about everything?
Why do people complain and judge others but they act the same way as they are acting?
Why don't they think before they act?
Why they feel the need to do something the way they do?
Who do people NOT know the boundary and draw the line?
Why don't people mean the words they say?
Why do people hate each other the way they do?
Why do people say they hate someone but yet treat them in the nicest way possible?
Why can't we all love each other?
But do love even mean anything?
Is there even any truth in the things people do and say?
In this insincere world, how do we even find and know any real friendships and relationships?
Who do you trust?
Do you know who will be there for you when you fall?
How do you even know who someone really is?
How do you even know who they will turn out to be?
Why do people feel the need to be jealous of other people's achievements and happiness?
And why do all the hatred and troubles come to the purest, kindest and most innocent?
Do you ever feel like you are being observed and judged of what you do even if you feel that there isn't any need for anyone to do that?
People always think and complain that what they have been through is the worst, but there are actually people that got it worse.
People often don't understand what exactly you have been through but yet they want and think they could judge you and voice out opinions blindly.
It's really rare to have another person who is fighting the exact same battles as you since everyone has their own battles in life.
When does our world even turn so sick?
Happiness is temporary and pain is too but it does seem to last much more longer, doesn't it?
Right in the end, it'll always be just you, alone, with no one else. In the end, it'll just be up to you.
Where are all the kindness, the joy and the love?
Where are all the sunshine, the laughter gone to?
Everything is going to be alright in the end, but right now, the end seems so far away.
Keeping everything inside until it finally explodes is a very bad strategy indeed. Am truly sorry if you have read this. Truly sorry. Goodbye.
It's like sitting in a dark corner, inside a tiny little box, underground, far far away from everyone and everything.
I wonder why the world is the way it is?
I wonder why do people are the way they are?
Why the society is the way it is?
Why do people lie and not be honest and upfront about everything?
Why do people complain and judge others but they act the same way as they are acting?
Why don't they think before they act?
Why they feel the need to do something the way they do?
Who do people NOT know the boundary and draw the line?
Why don't people mean the words they say?
Why do people hate each other the way they do?
Why do people say they hate someone but yet treat them in the nicest way possible?
Why can't we all love each other?
But do love even mean anything?
Is there even any truth in the things people do and say?
In this insincere world, how do we even find and know any real friendships and relationships?
Who do you trust?
Do you know who will be there for you when you fall?
How do you even know who someone really is?
How do you even know who they will turn out to be?
Why do people feel the need to be jealous of other people's achievements and happiness?
And why do all the hatred and troubles come to the purest, kindest and most innocent?
Do you ever feel like you are being observed and judged of what you do even if you feel that there isn't any need for anyone to do that?
People always think and complain that what they have been through is the worst, but there are actually people that got it worse.
People often don't understand what exactly you have been through but yet they want and think they could judge you and voice out opinions blindly.
It's really rare to have another person who is fighting the exact same battles as you since everyone has their own battles in life.
When does our world even turn so sick?
Happiness is temporary and pain is too but it does seem to last much more longer, doesn't it?
Right in the end, it'll always be just you, alone, with no one else. In the end, it'll just be up to you.
Where are all the kindness, the joy and the love?
Where are all the sunshine, the laughter gone to?
Everything is going to be alright in the end, but right now, the end seems so far away.
Keeping everything inside until it finally explodes is a very bad strategy indeed. Am truly sorry if you have read this. Truly sorry. Goodbye.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Thoughts on Love
So things often go like that.
Girl met guy or guy met girl.
One person will firstly like another more, and will be so crazy about the other person.
Next, when this first person doesn't care much anymore, the second person starts to like and go crazy about this person.
When you're lucky, the first and second person will start to like each other again.
So now, when do you actually start a relationship ?
And why do you want to risk an awesome friendship ?
Why do you even want to risk a friendship with someone over a relationship when you don't even know what the future holds ?
And you don't even truly know the other person yet ?
There is this feeling that push you forward, make you take the step, I guess.
A feeling so powerful, so strong, that makes you know it's the right thing to do, even though your mind will have a lot of unanswerable questions and unknown future.
Now here comes a twist. What if you managed to keep this feeling all to yourself and not let the other person know ? Do you think friendship could last then ? They do say 'you can't stay just friend with the person you love'.
But lets just say you tell the other person your feeling and that person reject you. Now what ? Don't you think it's better to NOT tell at all ? But people do say ' the what ifs feeling is worse than the truth' .
But what if the other person has the same feeling ?
Then you two shall move into a relationship.
Now during a relationship, how to keep it going then ? How everything works ?
What about your past ? your present ? your future ? your parents ? your friends ? your life ?
It'll just make your life so wonderful if things work out well.
But now what if it doesn't ? On what basis do you and the other person feel the need to break up ? But why not solve the problems instead ?
Now if you do end up breaking up, then you ruin a friendship ? So you could stay friends ? But the friendship will not be the friendship like the first time. That's for sure. Now won't you feel regret that if you don't risk the friendship, everything will be alright ?
Now what if the feeling is so strong that after breaking up, you feel like going back to the person again ? Will it be worth it ? What makes you think it's going to work this time around ? If you do think it'll work, then why break up in the first place ?
And there is a difference between love and like. And also there is a difference between crushing on someone and liking someone.
LOVE= QUESTIONS.
TOUGH QUESTIONS.
Which is why things can't be taken lightly.
Which is why this takes courage.
...........
Girl met guy or guy met girl.
One person will firstly like another more, and will be so crazy about the other person.
Next, when this first person doesn't care much anymore, the second person starts to like and go crazy about this person.
When you're lucky, the first and second person will start to like each other again.
So now, when do you actually start a relationship ?
And why do you want to risk an awesome friendship ?
Why do you even want to risk a friendship with someone over a relationship when you don't even know what the future holds ?
And you don't even truly know the other person yet ?
There is this feeling that push you forward, make you take the step, I guess.
A feeling so powerful, so strong, that makes you know it's the right thing to do, even though your mind will have a lot of unanswerable questions and unknown future.
Now here comes a twist. What if you managed to keep this feeling all to yourself and not let the other person know ? Do you think friendship could last then ? They do say 'you can't stay just friend with the person you love'.
But lets just say you tell the other person your feeling and that person reject you. Now what ? Don't you think it's better to NOT tell at all ? But people do say ' the what ifs feeling is worse than the truth' .
But what if the other person has the same feeling ?
Then you two shall move into a relationship.
Now during a relationship, how to keep it going then ? How everything works ?
What about your past ? your present ? your future ? your parents ? your friends ? your life ?
It'll just make your life so wonderful if things work out well.
But now what if it doesn't ? On what basis do you and the other person feel the need to break up ? But why not solve the problems instead ?
Now if you do end up breaking up, then you ruin a friendship ? So you could stay friends ? But the friendship will not be the friendship like the first time. That's for sure. Now won't you feel regret that if you don't risk the friendship, everything will be alright ?
Now what if the feeling is so strong that after breaking up, you feel like going back to the person again ? Will it be worth it ? What makes you think it's going to work this time around ? If you do think it'll work, then why break up in the first place ?
And there is a difference between love and like. And also there is a difference between crushing on someone and liking someone.
LOVE= QUESTIONS.
TOUGH QUESTIONS.
Which is why things can't be taken lightly.
Which is why this takes courage.
...........
People nowadays
If you're a really bad person, then it's understandable that people will judge, criticize, comment and dislike you.
But what if you're an already good person ?
Do you still get judged ?
Do you still get hatred ?
YES. YOU DO.
It's understandable that everyone has flaws, no one is perfect, we get it. But is it reasonable to dislike and judge people because of such tiny flaws and weaknesses ? NO !
And there is another whole new section of : Judging before knowing. That's the worst, seriously. But people who do that often don't truly know you though. People who really know you won't do that, they'll just be honest and tell you what you need to correct, right ?
I have this theory that people who spread hatred are those people who need kindness and love the most. They just feel so insecure and they feel they need to let people down to make them look stronger. They have no one to turn to to talk about their problems.
People are just bad, you know, BAD.
But then again, you cannot satisfy everyone, you can't make everyone like you and you can't stop people from judging.
Moving on to another section, this is weirder. People seem to get mad at you for whatever reason without any warning. I think it's the mood swing problem.
You never know why. You never did anything wrong. They just seem to get mad at you like that, out of the blue, one fine day. Suddenly, everything could change. No matter how much good times you have spent together, with just this one day, this one moment, you got resentment. People got mad. Well, surely, there is some explanations ? Like maybe you tell me what's wrong before getting mad ? Can we talk about it before anything else bad happened ?
People are weird. People are mental. I don't see how I could survive in this planet full of people. But I love those loved ones would help me through.
I'm really DONE with all this torture of figuring things out, about why things happen these ways and how people come to conclusions, how is my impression on them, what they think.
But then again, I should not even care in the first place. They're messed-up, doesn't mean I have to too.
But everyone knows it's hard to NOT CARE.
Everyone cares.
This is why we're all scared.
And this is why the planet, the society, the people are all messed-up.
GAHHH !
But what if you're an already good person ?
Do you still get judged ?
Do you still get hatred ?
YES. YOU DO.
It's understandable that everyone has flaws, no one is perfect, we get it. But is it reasonable to dislike and judge people because of such tiny flaws and weaknesses ? NO !
And there is another whole new section of : Judging before knowing. That's the worst, seriously. But people who do that often don't truly know you though. People who really know you won't do that, they'll just be honest and tell you what you need to correct, right ?
I have this theory that people who spread hatred are those people who need kindness and love the most. They just feel so insecure and they feel they need to let people down to make them look stronger. They have no one to turn to to talk about their problems.
People are just bad, you know, BAD.
But then again, you cannot satisfy everyone, you can't make everyone like you and you can't stop people from judging.
Moving on to another section, this is weirder. People seem to get mad at you for whatever reason without any warning. I think it's the mood swing problem.
You never know why. You never did anything wrong. They just seem to get mad at you like that, out of the blue, one fine day. Suddenly, everything could change. No matter how much good times you have spent together, with just this one day, this one moment, you got resentment. People got mad. Well, surely, there is some explanations ? Like maybe you tell me what's wrong before getting mad ? Can we talk about it before anything else bad happened ?
People are weird. People are mental. I don't see how I could survive in this planet full of people. But I love those loved ones would help me through.
I'm really DONE with all this torture of figuring things out, about why things happen these ways and how people come to conclusions, how is my impression on them, what they think.
But then again, I should not even care in the first place. They're messed-up, doesn't mean I have to too.
But everyone knows it's hard to NOT CARE.
Everyone cares.
This is why we're all scared.
And this is why the planet, the society, the people are all messed-up.
GAHHH !
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Books I Need To Buy
By J.K Rowling ! Are you kidding me ?!
Combination of 2 book series !! Must be epic !!
The 4th book of the Heroes of Olympus series ! Gonna be awesome !
The Hobbit book ! After watching the movie ! Just simply amazing !
Or Maybe I should just get this and be done with it ? With the lords of the rings series !
Or this series ,which is recommended by my cousin ?
But there is just one problem if I get all these books. I won't be able to study ? *laughs*
Nah...I don't think so . Since I have done this before .
Well, alright then. That said, I'll go and try to get my hands on them !
Peace out !
Artistic ?
I have always wondered why people who could sing, act, dance, play musical instruments, write, draw, paint and other artistic stuffs all together ?
Well, think are those artistic genes *laughs*
It is just wonderful to see people with these kind of artistic abilities. It is just an awe.
There are people who could do artistic stuffs averagely remarkable, but there are some other people who do one thing better than the other.
It all depends on the individual.
Being artistic has become a field of its own with the most amazing people on the Earth are in.
I hope someday I could join them and be one of the artistic people out there.
Currently I could write, draw and paint, and I sort of know how to play the piano.
I do work hard to be able to do those stuffs in a better way and I hope one day I shall succeed in doing what I love and share them with the world to inspire people and make changes.
Goodbye.
Well, think are those artistic genes *laughs*
It is just wonderful to see people with these kind of artistic abilities. It is just an awe.
There are people who could do artistic stuffs averagely remarkable, but there are some other people who do one thing better than the other.
It all depends on the individual.
Being artistic has become a field of its own with the most amazing people on the Earth are in.
I hope someday I could join them and be one of the artistic people out there.
Currently I could write, draw and paint, and I sort of know how to play the piano.
I do work hard to be able to do those stuffs in a better way and I hope one day I shall succeed in doing what I love and share them with the world to inspire people and make changes.
Goodbye.
Inspiration post # 1
You might not see this. You might not even care to read this.
But to those of you who care enough to stop for a moment, spend a little time and energy to read, thank you.
I know that there are a lot of us out there going through all kinds of hardships, obstacles, problems and worry that things might not get solved or get better, I just want you to know that it will eventually because everything ends, good or bad. Things eventually end and if it doesn't end, it isn't the end of it.
We should have this belief in ourselves that we could overcome the things life throws at us and have this very thought that hard things come to us because we could handle them. We're stronger than we think we are.
We shouldn't let all the negativity pulls us down. We should stand tall and face it head-on and be brave warriors. Be confident.
Feeling confident, being positive and feeling great about ourselves attracts more positive and good things happening in our life, believe it or not.
So if you think you're having a bad life right now, STOP. Change your thought. Try thinking all the happy, proud things you have done and know that how blessed you are with all the love and support you have. And turn around and smile in the face of all those problems and troubles. You'll feel that things seem to be easier to solve then.
We should all be happy. Just let go and don't think too much. Life is good. And we should be thankful and grateful.
Love ourselves, and love others.
Hang in there. Remember, you're not alone. There are loads of people out there going through the same problems as you. Stand together and fight for a brighter tomorrow. Nothing is impossible. Everyone is a champion in their own rights. You make YOU. You make the power to choose who you want to be, where you want to go and how you want to be in life.
Growing up and encountering changes is a scary thing but it's also a part of life. Remember, if people could do it, why not you ?
No matter what, remember, there will be people looking over you, care for you and be there for you.
Life is short. Do the things that make you happy. Don't let anyone decide and tell you what to do in life. Be sensible. Grab opportunities.
SMILE. LOVE. LIVE.
But to those of you who care enough to stop for a moment, spend a little time and energy to read, thank you.
I know that there are a lot of us out there going through all kinds of hardships, obstacles, problems and worry that things might not get solved or get better, I just want you to know that it will eventually because everything ends, good or bad. Things eventually end and if it doesn't end, it isn't the end of it.
We should have this belief in ourselves that we could overcome the things life throws at us and have this very thought that hard things come to us because we could handle them. We're stronger than we think we are.
We shouldn't let all the negativity pulls us down. We should stand tall and face it head-on and be brave warriors. Be confident.
Feeling confident, being positive and feeling great about ourselves attracts more positive and good things happening in our life, believe it or not.
So if you think you're having a bad life right now, STOP. Change your thought. Try thinking all the happy, proud things you have done and know that how blessed you are with all the love and support you have. And turn around and smile in the face of all those problems and troubles. You'll feel that things seem to be easier to solve then.
We should all be happy. Just let go and don't think too much. Life is good. And we should be thankful and grateful.
Love ourselves, and love others.
Hang in there. Remember, you're not alone. There are loads of people out there going through the same problems as you. Stand together and fight for a brighter tomorrow. Nothing is impossible. Everyone is a champion in their own rights. You make YOU. You make the power to choose who you want to be, where you want to go and how you want to be in life.
Growing up and encountering changes is a scary thing but it's also a part of life. Remember, if people could do it, why not you ?
No matter what, remember, there will be people looking over you, care for you and be there for you.
Life is short. Do the things that make you happy. Don't let anyone decide and tell you what to do in life. Be sensible. Grab opportunities.
SMILE. LOVE. LIVE.
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