I will be,
your guardian angel,
standing over you,
looking over you.
Give you strength,
give you faith,
and the belief that,
you could become what you expect of life.
I shall be,
the one who adores you anonymously,
the one who loves you endlessly,
the one who supports you all the way.
Even if I know,
I would get neither returns,
nor recognition,
in the eyes of you.
I could be,
the sun that shines on you,
that gives you hope,
the moon that purify your soul,
and keeps your innocence,
the stars that sparkle,
to spice up your life.
If you would just let me be the one.
Copyright 2013 Tiffany Tham
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Sunday, April 14, 2013
The 'oh-so-memorable' AS Trial Exam
To be honest, I just don't feel like writing this. I'd rather forget it.
But all the same, I'm still writing. So....here we go then !
I actually don't have the heart to sit for this trial exam and preparation was done in a limited time, rushing to finish studying all the stuffs like a mad person.
But as life goes on and days fly by so fast, trial exam was upon me at last and so there I went for exam like everyone else.
DAY ONE : Economics exam
Preparation for it was alright I guess but although being as a perfectionist as I am, I still don't think it's enough, but to be honest, it's not exactly enough though, and I have my own expectations and I have to fulfill my parents' over-the-top expectations.
The objective part of the exam was hard, yes, but I still did what I did is right, but I wasn't sure what is exactly right in some way. Yeah well, it's just confusion I guess.
I was late for the subjective part of the exam, so being as I am, I wasn't calm. But thank God, the questions weren't that bad. I could manage to do it, but I never know whether I'll get good marks for what I think was right.
DAY TWO : Law exam
This day was alright, surprisingly. Questions were hard though, so naturally I just did what I think was right for the questions, but I'll never know whether I'll get good grades for what I wrote.
That night, i got phone calls from my parents which I told them how hard the exam was and I don't know why, they were like freaked out because of it and said I didn't study hard enough and that if I so study hard enough I'll be able to do it well. And some other stuffs that made me so down and not in the mood anymore. I wonder when will these kind of expectations will be able to stop. It also seemed funny to me because I did study and that I wasn't that bad in my studies either and then it lead to me being angry and then it just went very bad.
DAY THREE : Business Studies exam
Preparation for this exam was not good at all with me being so down and not feeling great the night before. I did the exam like what I always do with the flow of information on my head. Paper 1 went smooth enough.
Paper 2 ? It was a shocker indeed. I did what I think I needed to do. And that was what went wrong. The instruction on the paper said : ...........do ALL questions...... And what I normally do ? Pick one question to do. So that was what I did. I went ahead and picked a question. That was just.....
So after the exam, it was shock. And then sad, disappointment and angry. And then everything was just bad again. Mum freaked out when I told her and I got scolded naturally. Dad didn't though. He just said 'this will be a lesson to you' , which is true indeed. Mistakes are lesson learnt. Still, the more I think about it, the more I count the marks, the more I focus on it, the worse it becomes. Overthink kills.
Concerns from friends and cousin of mine are very much appreciated. Am really touched indeed.
But then, I am just generally being sad and just...you know, lost of mood ? The real Cambridge A-level AS examination will be here in three months time. I'm not saying I'll be giving up, oh no, I definitely won't do that. But I don't feel the motivation to study like a mad person either. I just..er...stuck and halt in some point in between I guess ? Don't know, lost of mood is kinda terrible in my opinion. I'm worried that I'll go back to that depressed period before my SPM examination, which I just didn't study much and generally do nothing. But...some part of me thinks that the depressed mood won't come though, since my studies is better than it is during my SPM time. So yeah. People don't usually be sad and give up on what it's alright on track right ? Just a little bit more and the bridge will be built and be over with. Don't let go, I'd say.
That being said, I MUST READ INSTRUCTIONS ON QUESTION PAPERS ! And erm...yeah.
Let's just wait for the grades for the exam papers, shall we ? President list ? GONE. Dean's list ? Might gone too. Sorry Dad. Things don't always go smoothly. Mistakes happened. Bad things come along. I'd be surprised if everything goes smoothly.
This trial exam is kinda a record-breaking one.
And erm...yeah...study ? Yeah sure. I'll go and study. I'm getting fed up of it to be honest, but erm..yeah..need to study.
Bye then.
But all the same, I'm still writing. So....here we go then !
I actually don't have the heart to sit for this trial exam and preparation was done in a limited time, rushing to finish studying all the stuffs like a mad person.
But as life goes on and days fly by so fast, trial exam was upon me at last and so there I went for exam like everyone else.
DAY ONE : Economics exam
Preparation for it was alright I guess but although being as a perfectionist as I am, I still don't think it's enough, but to be honest, it's not exactly enough though, and I have my own expectations and I have to fulfill my parents' over-the-top expectations.
The objective part of the exam was hard, yes, but I still did what I did is right, but I wasn't sure what is exactly right in some way. Yeah well, it's just confusion I guess.
I was late for the subjective part of the exam, so being as I am, I wasn't calm. But thank God, the questions weren't that bad. I could manage to do it, but I never know whether I'll get good marks for what I think was right.
DAY TWO : Law exam
This day was alright, surprisingly. Questions were hard though, so naturally I just did what I think was right for the questions, but I'll never know whether I'll get good grades for what I wrote.
That night, i got phone calls from my parents which I told them how hard the exam was and I don't know why, they were like freaked out because of it and said I didn't study hard enough and that if I so study hard enough I'll be able to do it well. And some other stuffs that made me so down and not in the mood anymore. I wonder when will these kind of expectations will be able to stop. It also seemed funny to me because I did study and that I wasn't that bad in my studies either and then it lead to me being angry and then it just went very bad.
DAY THREE : Business Studies exam
Preparation for this exam was not good at all with me being so down and not feeling great the night before. I did the exam like what I always do with the flow of information on my head. Paper 1 went smooth enough.
Paper 2 ? It was a shocker indeed. I did what I think I needed to do. And that was what went wrong. The instruction on the paper said : ...........do ALL questions...... And what I normally do ? Pick one question to do. So that was what I did. I went ahead and picked a question. That was just.....
So after the exam, it was shock. And then sad, disappointment and angry. And then everything was just bad again. Mum freaked out when I told her and I got scolded naturally. Dad didn't though. He just said 'this will be a lesson to you' , which is true indeed. Mistakes are lesson learnt. Still, the more I think about it, the more I count the marks, the more I focus on it, the worse it becomes. Overthink kills.
Concerns from friends and cousin of mine are very much appreciated. Am really touched indeed.
But then, I am just generally being sad and just...you know, lost of mood ? The real Cambridge A-level AS examination will be here in three months time. I'm not saying I'll be giving up, oh no, I definitely won't do that. But I don't feel the motivation to study like a mad person either. I just..er...stuck and halt in some point in between I guess ? Don't know, lost of mood is kinda terrible in my opinion. I'm worried that I'll go back to that depressed period before my SPM examination, which I just didn't study much and generally do nothing. But...some part of me thinks that the depressed mood won't come though, since my studies is better than it is during my SPM time. So yeah. People don't usually be sad and give up on what it's alright on track right ? Just a little bit more and the bridge will be built and be over with. Don't let go, I'd say.
That being said, I MUST READ INSTRUCTIONS ON QUESTION PAPERS ! And erm...yeah.
Let's just wait for the grades for the exam papers, shall we ? President list ? GONE. Dean's list ? Might gone too. Sorry Dad. Things don't always go smoothly. Mistakes happened. Bad things come along. I'd be surprised if everything goes smoothly.
This trial exam is kinda a record-breaking one.
And erm...yeah...study ? Yeah sure. I'll go and study. I'm getting fed up of it to be honest, but erm..yeah..need to study.
Bye then.
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