I wonder...

You know, I wonder what it will like if I don't tell my parents anything about me or things happen in college...

They don't really ask at all, you see. I'll always be the one who tell them stuffs when I get home every weekends. I'll be like ''hey dad...'' or ''mum ! I'm something to tell you...''

Now, what if I don't do that anymore ?

Will they ask ? I doubt it.

To be clear, I'm not trying to seek for their attention or anything of that sort. I'm just thinking maybe I'm bothering them with the things I tell them ? And that they're not really keen on knowing my stuffs ?

They give my a lot of freedom, like seriously. I'm staying in hostel and I can do anything I want really. They don't check on me at all. If I don't tell them anything, they won't know. I can like go out with friends, do crazy things and not study for exams. But then again, I don't. I always study, study and study. That's what I do basically.

I think they give me so much freedom because they trust me. I'd rather think this way than that they don't really have time to bother about me. And I don't abuse the freedom and don't betray their trust is because I'm afraid of doing so. Yup. The fear. Fear certainly hold me back. I don't really want to go bad, like who does ? I spent my time being a good girl since I was a kid and I don't plan on wasting all the hard work and I don't want to ruin everything.

But really, I know that they love me very much. Of course they do, right ? They have done so much for me and I'm grateful and blessed.

But once in a while, I'd love them to start conversations and ask ''so how's things going on with you?'' .

Love you, Dad and Mum !